I received this book for free from the Publisher in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.Forever Now by Elise Sax
Series: Forever #1
Genres: Love & Romance, Young Adult
Source: the Publisher
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When Tess's mother abandons her during her senior year at high school, she must find a way to keep the secret and survive until graduation. She's surprised when Cruz, her crush and an aspiring model, moves in to help. Tess has dreams of studying in Paris, France and becoming a writer...impossible dreams without money or family. But as Tess and Cruz's relationship grows closer, Cruz will do anything to make sure Tess's dreams come true. But at what price?
Forever Now is the first book in the Forever young adult / new adult trilogy about finding love, living dreams, and overcoming great odds.
Forever begins now.
I thought this book sounded so interesting from the synopsis and was really excited to give it a try. Plus, it has a bunch of great reviews on Goodreads and Amazon. But this book just did not work for me. It looks like I’m most definitely the black sheep for this one because, like I said, so many people have loved it already. But the main character was so different from what I want in a book and I didn’t feel the love connection like I had wanted. I really just barely made it through this book. And now I’m disappointed and wondering if maybe I just read it completely wrong to be so far off from what other people have said about it. Still, I would not recommend this book. But, as always, you should decide for yourself if it sounds like a book you want to read.
The first, and biggest, problem for me with this book was the main character. She was awful. I don’t say that often but this girl drove me completely crazy. She was the classic damsel in distress. Her mother leaves her. And at sixteen, that is awful. I totally agree with that and would definitely put on a pity party for myself. Especially with the situation she was in. But she had also talked about how her mother was not even really a mother and she had been taking care of herself for a long time. Then she completely fell apart. And the only reason she survives without her horrible mother around is because some guy comes in and takes care of her. He literally does everything for her and she does just enough so that it doesn’t seem like she’s doing nothing. Then another friend comes in a saves her from something else. Seriously, this whole book was just things happening to this girl and then other people coming in to take care of her. And that’s fine, in real life it’s what should happen. A sixteen year old shouldn’t be left on her own. But in a book, I want a heroine that can take care of herself. I want to read about someone who will take charge. And sure, have some help along the way from her friends, but I want it to at least feel like the MC is being proactive. Things would happen and she’d just be like, ‘well, there go my dreams.’. Then Cruz would come in and fix something else and she’d be happy again for a while. It drove me insane. And then he leaves for a bit and she literally falls apart. She says she stops eating and caring about everything, stays in bed, time passes and she doesn’t remember what she’s done, and she says he made her whole and she’ll never be that again. (Cue the New Moon flashbacks.) It was not good. It was pretty much all the things I hate about MCs rolled into one. I wanted to shake her and tell her she shouldn’t need a man to make her feel whole and that she can do things for herself and she can be strong. But then I remembered everything else I’d read about her and honestly wasn’t sure if she could have survived on her own. It was really disappointing.
Another thing that bothered me was the relationship between Cruz and Tess. I just didn’t get it. She just talked about how hot he was (seriously, the hottest guy ever, future model, lickable from head to foot, super hot, etc…) and that was he’s going to be a model (really, in the book he’s going to be a model) and that’s pretty much all we know about him. Oh, and he’s a high school drop-out. So that he could work to take care of her. I don’t know anything else about him. I don’t understand why he likes Tess, why he has this need to take care of her, what he saw in her. I have no idea. I feel like this book would have been much more interesting from Cruz’s POV (he was actually doing things) and then maybe we could also understand their relationship a little bit more. They have nothing in common except that their parents left them. I wish I could understand what he saw in her and why she thought he was the love of her life (especially after some of the things he did).
Overall, I would not recommend this book. The MC made it almost unbearable. If I hadn’t received this book for review, I would have stopped reading around 20%. I still kept hoping it would get better, remembering all of those great reviews I’d read. At one point the MC does actually stand up to her mother but that doesn’t even turn out to be the climax. Just something that happens. Other people come in and still end up fixing everything. So her best moments ended up being worthless. So I recommend just skipping this book. There are plenty of other books out there about abandoned teens with dreams who actually try to fix their own situations.